So, Fasting Month is here. I was really excited about it. But, now, you know, I recognize something different. Something off with this year. A little less religious atmosphere. Last year, I read Koran for like every prayer, but now, even after three days I still haven't started not even a page. I reaaally have to work on that. I mean, would I want to lose a month full of mercy? Nope, I suppose not.

Well, anyway that's the end of the ranting. I just want to say "Sorry everyone for bad I've done, if I have." Yes, I know, a bit late. But hell, better late than never, right!

And I wish you all a great and unforgettable month =]

Hwaaaaaah, can you see me dancing right now?

Well, of course you couldn't.

Hehehee, remember the waiter of a certain restaurant that I wrote about? Today, I went dining in that place again, and yes I saw the guy!! He was even more adorable than the last time. His hair has grown up and he somehow fixed it up and it turned out great!

So, I dined at the restaurant again. I actually didn't remember him until I realized it was Saturday evening and he should be there. And sure enought he was or I wouldn't be here writing on and on about him.

He didn't serve our table but I saw him wandering around. Not sure though he remembered us or not since he didn't say hi to us anyway. Well, the night flowed uneventfully. He was just bidding us goodbye at the door. That's the only time I saw him pretty closely. And well, he wasn't really cute or what, but then again somehow he reminded me of Michael Moscovitz from The Princess Diaries.

Err, well, that's my pathetic attempt to at least write. I don't know how one can blog for more than once a day *glances at Synta*

Oh, and I did a little test. It's pretty good.

I got,,


Go check it out!

Hoo, today I'm in a pretty bright mood. Fics updated. And not those crap either. Ha! The glory in trory world has returned in full force. The old schools are back writing. And, nope they still haven't lost their charms. Still as good as theywere. Possibly better. If that's even possible. Err, it's a bit confusing, but well they are.

Maybe many of you don't get what I'm saying. Hehee, you really should read those fics I attach down there. Well, yes they're more like romantic novels. But for me, they totally worth my time.

Alright. Away, from the astounding updates, I don't really have anything. School's going mad, like usual. Exam's in the corner, again like usual. Oh, and Fasting Month also in the corner. I still got about three days debt. Gotta get fast.

Ah, it's crap again.

I would go down with this ship and I would put my hands up in surrender
There will be no white flags above my door, I'm in love, always will be


Can you see the defeat tone in those lyrics? Of course, you should *ih maksa!* Well, I suppose it's pretty blunt there, talking about defeat. And I've been thinking about it too. Not as in losing to somebody or what, but you know give in with weariness. It's like the world goes against you and after big effort, you just couldn't take it anymore and simply go with the flow. And that's how I feel sometimes. I know you'd think 'This girl takes everything too seriously' Gotta admit it's pretty much the truth. I'm a person who would muse deeply about her bad marks. Yes, just bad marks or grade or whatever you want to call it. That got me questioning 'How would I face a more complicated problem?' It's just my early years ( hopefully, I'll be long aged ) and there's a lot waiting for me ahead. If this gets me cowering, how could I deal with those bigger issues?

I know myself. And trust me when I say I want my life to be fluffy. Meaning? Meaning that I don't want to have pain. I know it is wrong, very wrong. Because pain, disease are ways for us to realize the grand-ness of Allah. But in the sense of logic, I think nobody would crave for pain. Unless those abnormal people. But seriously, is that a result of the defeat thing I talked about above? It doesn't make any sense, the two of them. Great, I'm rambling right now.

Maybe I should play that Linkin Park song as the background eh?

Hehee, I actually wanted to blog yesterday, but yes, it happened again. I'd typed so many words, and clumsily clicked up the template button -yes, the darned button- so, all I wrote had gone. And, I wasn't in the mood to go retype 'em all. No, thanks.

Okay, what I wanted to say the other day was actually about my friend. Well, she was just my former classmate. We weren't very close anyway. And this girl is kinda having a problem with her soon to be Subsie. You'd know how I view the Subsie issue if you read my other posts. And she's having a hard time deciding which one she'd enter. Well, you're far too late! It's Pentaru already, silly! Okay, she wanted to quit this one Subsie and enter the other. But what's the other? That, is the one in question. She's already bragged about quitting for ages, yet till this afternoon, she hasn't announced her departure. But what does that matter to me?

What matters to me is that she has a desire to enter the Subsie I'm in. And why's that a problem? Because besides having boasting about entering Mesis, she also does that with other Subsie. Basically, she's a fickle. Well, I've gotta admit I sometimes think this whole Subsie is a bull. But, I wouldn't think thjat to just get in or out that easily. I mean, does she think it's a joke? ( I do sometimes *sheepish*) I don't like it that she could just break in to us. What do you mean?!?

I know I seem to be just roaring unreasonably. Maybe it's just me.

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